Never in a million years did I expect my first episode of depression to happen during pregnancy. Like many, I thought pregnancy would be filled with food cravings and excitement. Instead, I found myself in a place where the world felt drained of color.
Beyond the expected pregnancy symptoms - the nausea and exhaustion - I experienced something deeper and more troubling. I didn't have cravings; I had aversions to everything. My house, my dogs, even existing felt overwhelming. I wanted to crawl under a rock and disappear.
What made it worse was feeling so alone. Every "Isn't this just the best?" and "Aren't you so excited?" made me feel defective. I had no one in my life who truly understood what I was going through. The only thing keeping me going was the hope that it would eventually get better.
And it did get better. That's why I'm sharing my story now.
Understanding Prenatal Depression & Anxiety
More than 1 in 10 pregnant people experience depression or anxiety during pregnancy, yet it's often overlooked or dismissed as hormones. Here's what you need to know:
Common symptoms include:
- Persistent sadness lasting over two weeks
- Loss of interest in usual activities
- Excessive fatigue beyond normal pregnancy tiredness
- Changes in appetite unrelated to pregnancy
- Difficulty concentrating
- Feelings of hopelessness
- Anxiety and restlessness
- Obsessive thoughts
Getting Help Matters
Treatment options are available and safe during pregnancy:
- Therapy (a risk-free option)
- Medication (including SSRIs when appropriate)
- Combined approaches
Working with your healthcare provider is crucial to find the right support for your situation. The risks of untreated depression during pregnancy can affect both you and your baby, so seeking help isn't just self-care - it's essential care.
You Are Not Alone
If you're in that dark place now, I want you to know that I understand. You're going through one of the most difficult times in your life, and you don't have to do it alone. That hope you're holding onto that things will get better? Hold tight to it. Because they will.
I would be honored to be that person for you - the one who understands, who's been there, who can tell you with certainty that this isn't forever. You will feel better. And until then, I am here for you, sending you the biggest virtual hug.
Remember: Your feelings are valid, your struggles are real, and help is available. You deserve support during this challenging time.
